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My hair is a sacred mess right now. And I’m as close to hungover as you can be without drinking. (Funny fact about Mia number 42: I don’t drink.)
Last night I went to Villa Domina for the first time. A couple of friends from Örebro’s new RFSU BDSMF group recently had their birthdays and decided to have a “kiddy birthday party” themed party at Villa Domina.
It was a very inspiring evening indeed! I’ve made so many new good friends through the BDSMF group. I’ve never really felt “alone” in my kinks and fetishes, but I think I might have been a little lonely (together with Robbie). In the group, we’ve mainly had meetings to just talk freely about BDSMF themes and it feels like I’ve been freed of something that has weighed on me, or rather weighed me down. I am not a freak, this is not unnatural and it is not just in my head or for show. No, it’s not like I’ve been hiding my orientation, it is not in my nature, but there has always been something there, making me hold back on my views. I don’t want to make this a rant, so to cut it short: the group has changed me and I do not think I would have gone to Villa Domina without them. And what a loss that would have been!
This is a photo of their dungeon (photo borrowed from villadomina.se), but Villa Domina is so much more than a dungeon. I mostly actually hung out in the kitchen (where the cookies were) and it was like any other regular house party – but with leather and latex. ;D Did I try out the dungeon? My bum hurt a little on the car ride back home, you fill in the rest. ;P I am not the one to have penetration sex or even show off my genitals in public, not with any kind of audience, but a spanking now and then is ok I guess. ^^;
I’m discovering new things about myself every day and it is so liberating! Just talking about these things makes me so happy! I am all giddy when I leave the group meetings, and leaving Villa Domina last night was the same! I’m realizing now that I really can’t describe my experience to it’s right, I can’t explain what I did really, because what I mostly did was talk and listen and laugh. I am eager to go again though, and try out some more of all that gear! ;D
I also had the pleasure to meet one of the organizers; Hanna Warg. I’ve been admiring her from the shadows for a while and I must admitt I was a little star struck when we met. ^^; She has a great site and YouTube channel where she anwsers questions, mainly on transsexualism, and I happen to know that she is currently writing a book on the subject of BDSMF. Great meeting you Hanna!
I really need to get more cute latex outfits! I had a really hard time deciding on an outfit, mainly because I’ve gotten a little too big for my cute little flared skirt. But at the last minute I remembered that I made a super flared skirt from a tractor tube many years ago. I wanted to do a “gaijin-BDSMF-mix” of all those cute styles originating from Japan. It may sound like I don’t know what the frak I’m talking about, but I’d like to think that I’ve got my keis and lolitas and gyarus sorted out, last night I just wanted to do a western BDSMF fusion interpetation thingie. It was very last minute, but it was ok. I would never shoot in that outfit, the tractor tube skirt deserves a little more spotlight though! Need to shoot it soon! ;D
I never had the chance to take a full body photo, but this is my hair and make-up for the evening:
And my nails:
This morning I reflected upon the fact that putting on make-up after a week of illness, made me feel like I recogized myself in the mirror again. I thought to myself: “Am I hiding behind make-up if I feel more like myself when I’m wearing it?” – because, you know, that’s what they say about people (women) who wear a lot of make-up.
I have not always worn heavy make-up, and I still very rarely do because it takes so long and in my line of work it would be ruined in seconds. But I do looove wearing it! Ofc I can leave the house with no make-up at all. Heavy make-up is a pretty new thing in my life, it was not until I was like 20 that I really started to experiment with make-up. I was in a good place in my life, my teen insecurities were fading away and I had started my studies at the university. And when I did start to experiment, it was like I found a new way of making art, with my face as the canvas, I could express something within me that I had had no way of expressing before. – I could conduct my beautiful inside out. Is that so strange? That it is not about being someone else, but rather expressing what is in my head, who I really am?
On this note, I start to reflect upon my fetish for masks.
Robbie always say that I become like a different person when I put on a mask – in a good way. Not not myself, just different – maybe more myself? I love masks on others, because of the mystery it creates of the wearer. But I myself love to wear masks because I feel like I can be more myself. Now, masks are often a lot different from make-up, they tend to hide a lot rather than enhance (which is the whole point of make-up). Note that the mask is for hiding features – NOT personality. Masks are magic, as soon as you put one on, you feel like you are unrecognizable and can let anything you want come out. As I also, in my own way, believe in magic, I cannot say that I do not believe that masks are perfect vessles for magic. ;D
And yes, I am aware that I do not wear like drag-heavy make-up, this was just something that came into my head on the not of my feelings on wearing make-up over all.
Finally the harness shoot is up on www.robbiesphoto.com!
I mat say this every time, but I think this might be my best shoot so far! Firstly, I had been drooling over this harness from www.restrictionwear.com for litterally years! Then, when I got it, it took quite some time to be able to shoot it like we wanted. I planned the styling for quite a while and tried different looks. And when we finally got to it, I did something I had been beating myself up about for like forever – I dared to climb out of my stone face! XD
A lot more from this set can be viewed at www.robbiesphoto.com!
I posted a sneaky photo of my outfit for the Darklife Halloween party on Facebook, but I was so pleased with the whole outfit I just need to show it off! (Yet again, crappy dark bathroom cellphone shots, sorry for that… XD)
Hoping to shoot it this summer. ^^ The antlers are part of an idea Robbie’s had for years. I bought them off Ebay (from Germany), still on top of the skull. Robbie and his father cut them off, actually threaded the inside of the antlers so I could screw them on an old diadem. Crafty! I love them for it, and I love the antlers! <3
So, a lot has happened on the latex and shooting front since I wrote last. And I’ve got the photos to show for it!
Since I wore my brand new dress from Westward Bound for the shoot, I snapped a photo for you (I don’t know when the photos from the shoot will be done).
Didn’t wear my hair like that btw… ^^;
Stay tuned for more updates tonight! ;D
Well, I’m at home, being sick. What better time to do some random blogging?
Here’s an old photo my nails that I’ve been wanting to post for many months. XD
The polishes are Kicks’ Midnight Pearl, plus IsaDora’s Gothic Black.
People never ask what kind of music I listen to, but now I’m gonna force the anwser on you.
See, I don’t go out clubbing very often, the past few years the only time I’ve been out clubbing is on our local fetish club Darklife (which is sadly closing down). The reason is simple – I love to loose myself in dance when I go clubbing and there just hasn’t been any clubs around playing what I like do dance to; synth, body and EBM.
On friday an old dark rock-synth-alt-club had a revival though – Afterhour! I danced ’til I could dance no more! <3 *Stomp stomp stomp* Pouffs and platform boots ftw!
My friend who took the photo below claims there weren’t any other good photos from that night, I doubt it – movement blur is the shit! I do not have the most flattering pose in this shot, but I kinda always look like a troll when I’m stomping the dancefloor – so I guess it’s pretty accurate. XD And yes, I am wearing latex leggings.
We could have named this set “Little Black Riding Hood” or something, but it’s sooooo used! Plus – as I posed, Robbie said: “You kinda look like a vampire or something…” and I was like “That’s exactly what I was thinking!”, so yeah… Vampiiiiiire! Ooooooooiiiioooooooo! Perfect for Halloween…? ;P
Felt nice to be back in my very first latex dress, I love it! And before you ask – the cape is a skirt. ;P
Yesterday I went to local fetish club Darklife‘s pride party. Ofc I had to show off my harness set from Restrictionwear! <3<3<3 Photographing was prohibited though, so I snapped a few at the restroom for you. ^^;
Clubbing is a great opportunity to try some new make-up options.
The lower straps could have been set a bit lower I see now…
And seeing these photos I’m thinking this harness set could do well with a pair of thigh cuffs… Hmm… ;D